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How I Spent My Summer Vacation (the lost post)

Posted in Death, Life with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 28, 2013 by zero dinh

Although the seasons have changed and winter is now here, the summer of 2013 is still at the front of most of my daily thoughts. It was a long summer that I spent in between my real life and the one I had stumbled into online.

This blog had taken me completely off track and into places that seemed to take pleasure in lies and confusion. And the deeper I sank in the quicksand the more I realized I was in a fight with a tar baby. One I had no hope in winning. But the great thing about the internet is you can turn it off. And I could, couldn’t I?  If the lies and games of Facebook, Twitter, and numerous accompanying blogs were getting to be too much, I could just turn it off. And I did so many times this summer, but not for too long, of course. There was too much going on for me to stay a way for any length of time. By the end of the summer though, that almost changed.

When I left off I was wrapped up in stuff as well as other things I was seeing things on different social medias that just made me cringe. From the ongoing feud between Murt and Michelle McKee to the out of control doxing of anon friends and foes. The worst of it was on Twitter. The things that people tweet about is outrageous! And it’s hard, if not impossible to tell who is being sincere and who is doing shtick. When you see numerous accounts where people talk about being depressed and wanting to kill themselves that seem more like blog wars than real cries for help, it’s hard not to question purpose. I mean, I see all these sites there to “fight” bullying but they seem to be wrapped up in the same techniques for “internet flair”.  Everyone pointing fingers and calling names like it’s one big cyber school yard. It had all been “Too Much”, but I continued on…

I had made a Twitter account:

and a Facebook page:

I have to admit, I wasn’t very good in the Twitter world. Can’t get out what I have to say in  140 characters or less. I’m just too complex for the simplicity of Twitter. But we’ll get back to my Twitter fail. First let’s go back to June. I had made a final post for the LISK site in June: ( I added the question mark in November when I had decided to start blogging again)

I then wrote the exhausting post titled “It’s All Too Much” here on my Prophet Blog:

It would end up being my last post anywhere until I stared up my LISK blog again in November.

But I didn’t know that at the time, I was just trying to move on from the LISK stuff and clear out some of this other stuff I was reading about. I was just taking a breather.

That’s about the time Facebook lit up with posts about Paula Deen and  her possible racist views. My own views on racism and bigotry should be some what apparent by now, but just in case, I find all hypocrisies to be wrong and a waste of time, I am not above them but I try hard to cure my self of any and all such hypocrisies when I see them arise, something more people should strive at doing, in my own humble opinion of course. Our hypocrisies are based on lies and I think my stance on lies has definitely been made apparent.

So, all that being said, you can imagine some of my replies on Facebook to those who felt it necessary to come to not only Paula Deen’s defense but the defense of the entire white race. Here’s a card I made and posted:

Paula Deen

I also wrote a long post on how I feel about the  “mythical white” race and those who feel the need to defend it all the time. I won’t repost it here, but it’s safe to say that I do not believe in a “white race” nor do I want to be involved with those who think they are part of a “white race”. Still not clear enough? Watch this video:

My favorite dumb ass thing people felt the need to post was the one about how if Wal-Mart was going to pull Paula’s merchandise from their shelves then it needed to pull rap albums that used the same “language”. These were accompanied with pictures of rappers like Lil’ Wayne, and were implying that old “white race” argument, “If they can say that word, why can’t we?”. Fair enough, in a racist type way. Except Wal-Mart has never carried albums that contained such words. Only “edited” versions of such music is available there. You can thank the PMRC for that. A group of “white” ladies (political wives to be exact) who went after “white” heavy metal groups in the 80’s and created the “Explicit Lyrics” sticker, which again Wal-Mart will not carry albums with this sticker. So there are no albums being sold at Wal-Mart using the n-word and there never has been. Dumb asses!

This all led into July and things being said about the Martin/Zimmerman trial. I didn’t know much about what had happened down there in Florida (Florida, what a place, vacation site for Long Islanders… sorry, probably should edit that out) but I was seeing too many things about it and decided to look into it.

The more I looked into the case the more I questioned this “stand your ground law” and what had really happened that night between  Trayvon Martin and George Zimmerman. I spent the whole day of July 13th on Twitter with my newly made account trying to understand all the negative, inappropriate, and racist things being put out there. There were troll and toon accounts made to poke fun at the whole thing. There were quite a few accounts using the actual crime scene photo of a lifeless Trayvon to assist in the internet joke. A joke I just didn’t get and I tried hard to get my point out there. But as I have already said, I failed miserably at this. I was constantly told if I didn’t like racism and bigotry then Twitter wasn’t the place for me. It was simple, if I didn’t like it, don’t read it. And I can understand that, but it was just so massive and just broke my heart. I felt I had to speak out. But all my Twitter comments got me, was several account freezes and warnings, due to others complaining about me writing on their racist tweets.

We could use hindsight here and ask all of you who posted “Team Zimmerman” on your social media sites how you feel about your “Team” now. But honestly it wasn’t people thinking Zimmerman was not guilty, that was not what got me, it was the carelessness of things being said about Trayvon.  It was the fact that many were using the tragedy as if it was some racist joke. And it got to me, it got to me bad.

I already have a love/hate relationship with so-called humanity. And this time it really was too much. I backed off of Twitter and stayed off the internet for a little while.

At the beginning of the summer I had taken a vacation to the beach and did some camping with family. It was just the thing I had needed back then to get my mind of the very confusing LISK blog I had started writing. And now here at the end of the summer after all I had witnessed on the screen of my lap top, another trip to the beach was needed.

I was born and raised on the streets of L.A. and the beaches of southern California, and when ever I get the chance I like to take my family there to just have fun and enjoy life. With all I had been going through online it sounded just like what I needed.  So we packed up a rental car and headed back to Cali. I like to travel in comfortable clothes, usually a t-shirt and pajama pants. That day I had on my Superman pajama pants and a t-shirt with a big Superman S right on the chest. Red S, blue shirt.

We had left early and had just got far enough for everyone in the car to have started napping. Everyone but me that is, I was driving. I remember looking at my wife in the passenger seat, her eyes were shut and I wondered if she was sleeping. I glanced in the rear view mirror and saw the kids were also back to sleep. Then something caught the corner of my eye. A dust cloud of some sort on the other side of the highway. As the dust cleared a little I saw that it was a vehicle turning over and over off the side of the free way. “Oh my god!” I gasped, bringing my wife out of any sleep she might have been heading towards. As I brought the car to a stop at the side of the freeway we watched the vehicle come slamming to a halt, once again right side up, on the opposite side of the freeway. I didn’t think, I just ran out of the car and toward the wreck across the other lane. It looked bad. I could see someone who had been thrown from the vehicle, was now walking back towards it. There was no collision, just one vehicle that had gone off the side of the road and tumbled many times before crashing down.

There were others stopping their cars and running to help. As I got to the crash someone exited the destroyed vehicle and ran around the front of it with me.  I remember thinking as I came around the other side of the vehicle, maybe it wasn’t that bad, I had already seen 2 people who seemed to be walking away with minor injuries. But this was quickly lost in what can only be called chaos.

It felt like a war zone. Everything got loud and bright. And slow and fast seemed to merge as one to create a rate of time I can not explain. The person who had gotten out of the vehicle and ran around the front with me quickly went to a little girl who was trapped in the wreckage. Others were running up, one who I believe had said he was a paramedic  went to help with the girl trapped in the wreckage. The little girl, who had been crying when we ran up, had now stopped all movement completely. My mind was racing and it seemed like so much was going on at once. The man now in the wreckage called out that he was handing the girl out and someone had to hold her. I was there and she was placed out into my arms. I turned holding her and the off duty paramedic came out of the wreckage and found a mat to lay on the ground where I lied her down and stood back and let him try to help her. I said a prayer, but I think I knew it was too late. I felt I was gonna freak out, but I had to keep it together, these people needed help and those of us who ran from our cars to try to help needed to keep it together.

The person who had been ejected from the vehicle as it flipped was now at the rear of the vehicle and was losing consciousness. Someone yelled for some water. Right at this point a motor home pulled off the side of the road. I ran up to it. A couple came out of it and I asked if they had water. the lady got me some bottled water and the man told me he was a doctor. I thanked god and told him what I had witnessed and told him to go to the little girl first. I ran past the girl that I had laid down on the side of the road with the water the doctors wife had given me. There were a few people gathered at the rear of the wreckage and I handed a bottle of water to one of them. The driver of the vehicle that crashed was also there and was freaking out. I tried to calm them down and get them to drink some water. I looked back towards the little girl and they were placing something over her face, a blanket or a jacket. Again I had to fight back the urge to just start screaming out. Now everyone was focusing on the one who had been thrown from the vehicle. They were now having convulsions. I looked up and saw a police car was trying to make his way through the back up of traffic that had built up. I ran to him as he pulled over and again went through all I had witnessed. I followed the officer back to the crash and stood there. There were people everywhere who had pulled off the side of the road and were helping in different areas. I looked over at the little girl who had been placed into my arms, now on the side of the road alone, face covered. I looked away, trying not to break down. Fighting back tears. I looked into the traffic slowly passing by. Some one had their phone out the window taking video footage. Just then some jack ass stuck his arm out the window and pointed. He yelled out “Ha Ha!” trying to sound like that kid from The Simpsons. He had the biggest, dumbest grin on his face, and I lost it.

I didn’t yell out other than the screaming  I did in my head. I stood there in my Superman pajamas that now had the blood of a dead little girl on them and looked up into the sky. I screamed out at God,  I screamed out at humanity,  I screamed out at me. But all in my head. I felt like I might black out. I looked back down, tears streaming down the side of my face. My eyes caught someone looking at me, the doctor’s wife I think, her eyes looked into mine and tears began to flow from hers as well.

I looked away and across the freeway at the car I had run from what seemed like years earlier. There was my family looking out the windows back across the freeway at me.

I pulled it together and wiped my face clean. Went up to the lady who had been watching me and asked if she was alright, she said yes, and together we walked back over to the driver and again helped to keep them calm. An ambulance was now heading our way, so I ran back to my family. They were there watching, waiting. My feeling of helplessness had to be quickly abandoned, because they were waiting for me to come back. They were waiting for me to take them on vacation. Which I did. But I had been shaken to my core. Everything that happened in those moments I had spent on the other side of that highway ran over and over in my mind the rest of the weekend. And honestly still does to this day. But I was just a witness, it is the poor little girl who lost her life in that accident and her family that this truly happened to. It wasn’t for me to get over or past, it didn’t happen to me. But as I said it still shook me deeply.

I wanted to blog about it all when I returned home, but couldn’t. And even though I have now done so, I have left most of the accident description generic and unfinished because I still feel strongly that all though I witnessed it and it affected me it is not my story. Hopefully you (the reader) will get what I am trying to say here and I can move on.

So I never wrote this post. In fact I stopped blogging here all together till now. I just didn’t have anything more to say. I’m no Superman, nothing I say on here was gonna change the way we treated each other or how the internet was being used to confuse and hurt each other. I mean that was the point of my “prophet” blog, right? To try to change… what, the world? I’m not that gullible to have thought that. But I did start this thing hoping to reach others and teach some kind of movement in further understanding of each other. And even now as I write this I still don’t feel anything I can add here will make a difference. The caucus races continue. We go on hurting each other.

Summer is gone, seasons changed, and life went on. And that may be the best way to end this post.

Life goes on. And everyday we are lucky enough to still be a part of it, we owe it to those who are not, to live it the best we can and help others to live it as well.


Blog MIA

Posted in Internet, Life with tags on December 12, 2013 by zero dinh

So, I kind of left this blog up in limbo. I wasn’t sure if I’d come back to it, but I decided I couldn’t leave it the way it was. The idea behind this blog was to try to show my understandings of this world we live in and those of us who live in it. The very first side blog derailed the whole thing. And by the last post my head was spinning from all the messed up stuff I saw people doing to each other in the anonymity of the internet.

I wish I could say it stopped there, but it didn’t. As I got more involved in Twitter and saw the games going on there, well I just kept sinking deeper into it all. And by the time the Zimmerman trial ended I was just so sick of the things I was reading I almost self destructed.

Then something happened that did cause me to self destruct. But only for a short time. I stopped blogging all together. I thought about putting it all into a post here, titled “How I Spent My Summer Vacation” but just couldn’t bring myself to blog about it.

So here it sat. Life went on and there was plenty of things to keep me busy and get over the summer’s events. I even started blogging again on my LISK  blog:

Continuing there made me want to come back here and give this blog a proper ending. And I can’t do that without writing “How I Spent My Summer Vacation”. And that won’t be easy. so I might as well get started…

For Those Of Us Still Falling Down

Posted in Life with tags , on June 13, 2013 by zero dinh

So often when a fellow human being stumbles and falls we line up to kick them. Sometimes we just point and laugh. Or we turn and ignore it all together. It’s easy to tell some one how bad they fucked up. It’s easy to use it to our own advantage. When someone makes a mistake or falls down its ither the end of the world or something so funny it’s guaranteed to get a million views. How often do we stop and offer a hand and help someone up? Tell them “Yea, I fall down sometimes too, it’s not the end of the world.” Listen we all make mistakes, some of us are better at learning from them than others. But all of us could learn how to react better to those who have fallen. Help them up, tell them it’s alright, we all fall down sometimes. And for those of you who never fall down have pity on us who still do.

I recommend this song to those who might have fallen down recently.

Don’t give up, it takes awhile I have seen this look beforeAnd it’s alright, you’re not aloneIf you don’t love this anymore
I hear that you slipped again I’m  here ’cause I know you need a friend
And  you know that accidents can happen And it’s okay, we all fall off the wagon sometimes It’s not your whole life, it’s only one  day You haven’t thrown everything  away
Take some time, learn to  breathe And remember what it  means To feel alive and to  believe Something more than what  you see
I know there’s a price  for this But some things in life  you must resist
And you know that  accidents can happen And it’s okay,  we all fall off the wagon sometimes  It’s not your whole life, it’s only one day  You haven’t thrown everything away
I hear that you slipped again I’m here ’cause I know you’ll need a friend
And you know that accidents can happen And it’s okay, we all fall off the wagon  sometimes It’s not your whole life,  it’s only one day You haven’t  thrown everything away
You know that accidents can happen And it’s okay, we all fall off the wagon  sometimes It’s not your whole  life, it’s only one day, You haven’t  thrown everything away
So don’t  give up, it takes awhile


Heart Songs

Posted in Life, Music with tags , , , , , , , on April 29, 2013 by zero dinh

Please click here on Weezer’s “Heart Songs”  with lyrics of course:

I relate to this song because I grew up with these same  artist mentioned. But when the beat drops a little and they bring up Nirvana and then into how and why they started a band…  that’s the part I really connect with. The inspiration that Weezer got from their “Heart Songs” would circle around for them to create their own music that would become someone else “Heart Songs” and inspiration. The flow is natural… good. Like a bee providing pollen for the flower, it works because it’s supposed to work. When we inspire each other to inspire each other  magic and miracles happen because we are working it right. And when we inspire each other to help each other things get accomplished. Lives get better. All great philosophers and religious figures have taught this way of helping each other, it goes back to our tribal beginnings, working together.

Now one may play Devil’s Advocate and say,  “Yea, but creation also comes from chaos and destruction.” And it does, and sometimes is needed. But if we listen to our selves, if we listen to each other, the flow of understanding, like water, moves naturally.  We have been shown and taught this each and every day, not just from those we deem important, but every one of us showing each other a better way, the right way. Of course darkness will always be there, bad things will happen even if there were no bad people.  And our creations will always reflect this, we need the “horror movie” , we need the “explicit lyrics”,  we need the bad and the good… but we should try to be inspired by the good. Good inspiration creates good inspiration… and things just work better that way, don’t believe me, then live without all these little gadgets we have now a days from what we have been inspired to create.  And that’s just a small part of it. The people, places, and things  in our lives help  inspire us to be part of creation and ideas that spin back on the people, places, and things in our lives. And then like a spinning wheel it just works.

Good inspiration can come from any where… but for me, music is at the top. And my “Heart Songs”, the ones that really hit my soul,  those are where I look for my real inspiration . And I’m sure many of you out there feel the same way.  Here’s a few of my “Heart Songs”:

I’m sure I’m not the only one who puts “Imagine” by John Lennon at the top of their “Heart Songs” (click here for video):

Imagine all the people sharing all the world“. Is anything more even needed to be said? I guess so, because Lennon was shot dead and we are all still fighting over this world. But we shouldn’t let the negative take away the inspiration of John Lennon and this truly inspiring song. But for me if the darkness does try to negate the positive flow of my life I listen to a song from my other musical hero Nikki Sixx. The song “Life is Beautiful” by his band SIXX A.M. helps me to remember… um, well… Life is beautiful! (click here for video)

“I was waiting for my hearse

What came next was so much  worse

It took a funeral to  make me feel alive

Just open your eyes

Just open your eyes

And see that life is beautiful.”

In fact both Sixx A.M. albums,  The Heroin Diaries Soundtrack and This Is Gonna Hurt, are full of inspiring and insightful songs and I highly recommend them both. And I’m sure I’ll mention many more songs from these albums as this blog moves forward.

“Everlong” by Foo Fighters (click here for video)  was my wedding song as well as a “Heart Song” and means so much too me  because Sassy never stopped when I said when.

And there are lots of songs I would consider “Heart Songs” that have made up the soundtrack of my life. They mix with all those people, places, and things spinning in life’s circles.

I’m sure most of you reading this have your own “life soundtrack”, feel free to leave comments about your own “Heart Songs”.

I’ll leave you with a song trilogy from the end of the album “III Sides to Every Story” by the band Extreme. The album was divided into 3 parts: YOURS, MINE, and THE TRUTH. The last part is 3 songs woven together to create a lullaby of life and I play it whenever my mood gets deep and I start questioning if any of this means ANYTHING. (click here to hear the songs played together as they are ment to be heard, the lyrics are below, I know, another long one, but just trust me…)

“Rise ‘N Shine”

Dawn wakes the silence, of a fainted lullaby Day breaks the eyelid, from a song sung in my eye

Night rests in peace, as the sun mourns the sky All’s accounted for sheep, over a horizon’s I


And when you see, a south wind blow Forecasting, you will know, a hot day, will be on the way (Foolish one) You analyze, the earth and the sky I ask you why, you can’t analyze the signs, of the present time

I had a dream, not unlike the one from old Of a man king, whose head was made of gold Stand castles of sand weather the sundials rise ‘n fall Chasing wind through your hands, ’til water runs dry the well


And in the West, a cloud appears For shadows of a coming shower near, Oh, so near (Hypocrites) You analyze, the earth and the sky I ask you why, you can’t analyze the signs, of the present time

Vanity, Yes, all is vanity Vanity, Yes, all’s futility

For one that dies, another’s born Where laughter’s heard, comforters mourn There’s a time for everything

A song for love, even abhor An olive branch, or winter’s war There’s a time for EVERYTHING, UNDER THE SUN

“Am I Ever Gonna Change”

I’m tired of being me, and I don’t like what I see, I’m not who I appear to be So I start off every day, down on my knees I will pray, for a change in any way But as the day goes by, I live through another lie, if it’s any wonder why


Please tell me if it’s true, am I too old to start anew, cause that’s what I want to do But time and time again, when I think I can, I fall short in the end So why do I even try, Will it matter when I die, Can anyone hear my cry?


“Who Cares?”

Tell me, Jesus, are you angry? One more sheep has, just gone astray A hardening of hearts, turning to stone Wandering off, so far from home So many children, losing time Walk in darkness, looking for a sign Chasing their rainbows, the future looks so bright Slowly we’re losing, Sight of the light


All alone, out in the cold Can’t look back, am I growing old I chose a path, is this my fate Am I finding out, the truth too late


Here I am, a naked man Nothing to hide with empty hands Remember me, I am the one Who lost his way, your Prodigal Son



Age of Misinformation

Posted in Life with tags , , , , , , on March 28, 2013 by zero dinh

So that last one was a doosey!  I’m sorry if it seemed confusing to anyone. It was something I stumbled in to and felt others might find it blog worthy. If you are interested in a much more in-depth look at it, I have started a side blog.

But here, we must move forward. And to do that, we go back of course.

I wrote about the age of information, a.k.a. the computer age, a.k.a. the digital age and how we were heading into a new age. Some say we are already in it. An age of knowledge. To me it seems like a blur of Ages moving faster than ever before starting with the Technology Age quickly becoming the Information Age, which even faster became an Age of Knowledge. The next step, an age of understanding seems to be right in our grasp but for many different reasons we continue to misstep. Some are waiting for a messiah to return (or to come here for the very first time, having not been here yet) and give us this knowledge. Others, like ancient astronaut theorist, believe aliens will return to teach us. And there are many other reasons why that step is not taken.

And that may have been fine before we got to where we are now, but we are here. And we don’t need the world to end to use our technologies, to use our information, to use our knowledge and UNDERSTAND.

First step, stop misstepping.

We keep moving side ways, or even a little backwards into an age of misunderstanding. We all get how this works. The teachings of our ancestors are there, hell we learn from our own mistakes. (most of us do anyways) So why do we pretend to misunderstand. And why do we continue to try to pass off so much misinformation? Why do we lie and pretend so much? Why not let truth reign and work together at understanding more?

Why indeed… alright need some place to start, I already hinted at it.

We need to stop believing the end of the world is coming. Since the beginning we have been waiting for it to end. Maybe it’s not suppose to. Maybe we have been misinformed. It is set up to continue in a circle (circles, more powerful than the number three). Everlasting life may already be here from each generation to the next continuing that life.

So again with the simple, stop waiting for the world to end and start helping it to go on forever.

And stop all the misinformation!

New Post

Posted in Life with tags , , , , , , , on March 16, 2013 by zero dinh

OK, before I start going off into some crazy places, and believe me I’m about to, I want to just once more get across the final message once again. The whole point of what I want to say is we do not take the time to understand each other and we need to treat each other better. I know a few of you are saying, fine, got it no need to read on. But I still have a lot to say (did some one just groan?) and there are still other TRUTHS and always things to understand. And for the constant reader lots of Hidden stuff. And for those who have comments, we will learn from each other.  “It’s great to learn, ’cause knowledge is power!” See, if you had been following my blogs you’d understand the Schoolhouse Rock reference… maybe.

Anyway I hope you continue to follow, and I promise to try and stay focused and always bring it back to the point. But there will be times when the road will get bumpy and the terrain strange.  For those who continue the ride, buckle up, our first detour is coming.

Life, The Universe, and Everything!

Posted in Life with tags , , , , , , , , , , on March 12, 2013 by zero dinh

So, those who know me, or have read anything I have written, know I can over explain things and get off subject. This is only because simple is much more complicated then it looks and total understanding sometimes demands extra explanation. And since in this blog (as the title says) I plan to explore EVERYTHING, side-blogs will be needed.

So, if I feel a subject is just to big and needs more time I will start a “side-blog”.  And that blog will continue on it’s own untill I, or  we beat it to death. I say “we” because comments and discussion will be a very important part of these blogs.

The time has come to enter a new age! It is time to move on from what some call, the age of information.  The internet (world wide web) has played a big part in this age and  also can help us move into a new age. This new age is waiting for us, the age of understanding. But we are not using the tools around us to move forward.

Imagine all the people sharing all the world” John Lennon

Life, The Universe, and Everything? It’s right there now, at our fingertips. Information is everywhere. Communication is easier then ever before. Understanding is possible. Understanding what? Well, Life, the Universe, and Everything of course. But most important, each other. We have to understand eacth other better.

Understand each other better to help treat each other better, simple right? And yet so damn complicated.